This world is tuned to answers. Whenever there is a story on the news of injustice there is a demand for blame to be placed. When we look at the world around us we need an explanation of how the science works. I am guilty of it myself, I cannot watch those programs that my wife watches like Lost, or Prison Break, or 24 because I need the answer! Lost went on for 6 series, 24, 1 hour long episodes a series and still gave no answer in the end. I would want that part of my wasted life back!
And yet what if sometimes there is no answer? I mean in all the amazing work science does to bring us an understanding of life and the universe, there is not a scientist in the world that can tell me exactly what light is.
God works in a similar way. I have seen miracles. I have seen a person with no knee cap get prayed for and a new one grew in front of my very eyes. I have seen money appear from nowhere in my hand and yet out of the many thousands of people I have prayed for healing with, I can count the successes on one hand.
I want to box God, I want a formula. I want to know that if I touch my nose, jump up and down, throw mud in someone's face then they will be healed every time! But we all know what happened to Moses when he started to think he knew better than God! I want to understand why his Word says that we only need faith of a mustard seed to see God move but when the disciples were shocked that they could not cast out demons on one occasion, He said their faith was not enough!
And yet if all the answers were there in black and white in the Bible then we would have no relationship with God, there would be no need for faith. He could never surprise us, He could never teach us. He could never meet us in suffering, He could never astound us with that which is supernatural and we would live according to the law, not in relationship with Him.
So I don't know why God allows some things to happen. I will always be stuck between knowing God CAN and God will. My faith may sometimes lack in believing that God will provide in the immediate! But I know God is God, I know His word is true, and while sometimes I may not know the answers, I am actually ok with this because if I knew it all then God would be no better than me and He wouldn't be much of a God!
'Father in heaven, help me to rest in the peace that you are in control. Help me to not always obsess with getting answers and help me to not always say "teach me Lord" but to sometimes say "I know you are Lord"
Psalm 33 v 4-5:
'God's word is true, and everything he does is right. He loves what is right and fair; the Lord's love fills the earth.'